I am struck with sadness today because I know tomorrow it will be official that I am not going to have any more children. I just feel this emptiness that I am missing something......a boy. Maybe it is because I was so convinced that I was having a boy that I feel this way. There is no way I would trade Norah for anything but I would definitely add something :) I went downstairs to do some laundry and I came across the little brown shoes that were filled by Dallas. It brought a tear to my eye. This last pregnancy wasn't the easiest on my body so I know that it would be worse the next time but for some reason that doesn't matter to me right now.
I was saying to Heather this morning that i didn't think you two were done... Remember people DO still get prenant after you know what. Just ask Joslyn... either way Amber if you are feeling this way you should think about post-poning Collins Apt. At least until you are BOTH sure. Their's nothing wrong with less permanant forms of protection.
ReplyDeleteI'll be praying for you to have guidance! I'm sorry that you are sad today.
ReplyDeleteThe 2nd Amber post, along with this one, is actually from Heather. I forgot that Amber was signed in...
ReplyDeleteYes, don't schedule anything too soon. I thought you were going for 6 :) Hope you feel better, remember it is normal to feel sad after having a baby. Hang in there girl.
ReplyDeleteDid you take this picture?? I LOVE it, I might just have to copy, print it, and then hang it in my house... so precious!
Dear Amber,
ReplyDeleteI realize you don't know me very well, but I'm a former (and sometimes substitute)Cubbies leader--Denise. I'm friends w/ both Angela and Rachel Boe (through her blog I came across yours).
I had my tubes tied after the birth of our 3rd. I don't know if you're having the sterilization or your husband; but if it is you, I want to tell you to please...please find another alternative.
Since having mine done, I have been plagued with a multitude of female problems, that a specialist later attributed directly to my tubal.
I have fibroids, endometriosis, one of my ovaries shrunk in size due to the main artery to it being severed during the tubal (a common occurance) and had to be put back into place (it actually fell!). My uterus is collapsing in on itself, and I have the "innards" of a 60 yr old woman.
At the time of my tubal, I was 23.
I've lived with these problems for 8 years, and I HATE the idea of another woman going through the same things.
If you get a chance, please look up "post tubal ligation syndrome". Many docs dispute it, but I'm living proof that it does exist.
Trust the Lord with your womb. You trust Him with every other aspect of your life...why not this one? I realize that's a rather big statement to make, and I'm sorry if I'm stepping out of line (esp. since you don't know me other than by sight.)
I've come to realize that this was one of the biggest mistakes--regrets--of my life. Not just for health reasons. But because, like you, I long for another son. One that I will never have the chance at having.
I can't even have invitro due to the damage to my body. Nor can we afford adoption.
Please...if you have ANY doubt whatsoever, you should WAIT and pray.
With love,
Denise Opper
Ok, taking the time to read over previous comments, I realize that it is your husband's surgery; not yours.
ReplyDeleteHowever, there are still problems (albeit not as many) for men after sterilization as well.
And again...if you have any doubts, any sort of hesitation, you should by all means WAIT and seek the Lord's guidance. Perhaps your sadness is coming from His hand, allowing you the opportunity to change your mind before it's too late.
I know this sounds like a crazy woman ranting, but I just sincerely hate to see another beautiful, Godly family make the same mistake thousands of us have made before you.
I know you don't know me and I have only posted one comment...but I just have to say that I think you should atleast wait a bit too...I thought we might be done with this being our 4th and things have gotten harder on my body...but what a joy they are!!!! =) We have always planned on adopting one day, so maybe this will be what we pursue next if my body can't handle any more, but it never hurts to wait.
ReplyDeleteI pray that the Lord will guide you in whatever decision you and your husband choose! =) I'm sure you are seeking His will-it sounds like you both love Him!
blessings,
tarena