Repentance....

I have been thinking of the word repentance lately and today I was struck with how I needed to repent. I love going to my church because I am constantly put in my place. I don't have someone coming up to me pointing a finger per say, but God is speaking to me opening my heart. ....he who has a ear let him hear... I LOVE that we go somewhere that really speaks the truth. Instead of giving us warm fuzzies all the time. We all need warm fuzzies here and there...hopefully you understand what I am saying. Anyhow, with our current situation I have just been feeling so much shame, guilt, worthlessness and the list can go on.

Why have I been feeling this way? Here is a verse I read this week in my study of the First Principals. Romans 1 I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. 2 Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.

I have been reacting the very way the world tells me too! I have basically been throwing myself down on the ground kicking and screaming. Thinking it really is the end of the world for me.

Father please forgive me for reacting in such a way that is so displeasing to you. You are God and you are the one who gives and takes away. I am excited to see how you are going to work this out not for my benefit but for Your will to be done. I am excited to grow and rely on You. Help us to endure this trial with joy knowing that you are above all of this. You have done so much for us and forgive me for thinking that it was never enough. Here I am Lord, here I am!