Radiant

Those who look to him are radiant

Their faces are never covered in shame

So let afflicted hear and rejoice

I will cry out, I will call out.  

I sought the Lord, He answered me

He delivered me from my fears

Taste and see that the Lord is good

Blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him  

The righteous man has many troubles

But God delivers him from them all

Fear the Lord, you his saints

He will redeem those who take refuge in Him

This song once again spoke to my heart today.   I feel the last few years all I have done is walk in shame, guilt and self pity.  I have realized that I am a person that really seeks the approval of others.  I constantly struggle with wanting to be something or someone that people will approve of and like.  When I look in the eyes of others I am usually looking to see if they see me as one that is worthy of love or acceptance.  Will they like me, do I need to change who I am in order for that to happen...all questions that go through my head every day, every conversation.   When will they leave, what will I do to stop them from liking me. But today felt good.  As I thought and pondered the words of this song while at Worship today I was in awe how I could face the Lord with out shame.  There have been times I thought I needed to be severely punished for some of the things I have done.  

So my prayer is that in this life I will daily taste and see that the Lord is good.  That I will face him with out my head down and choose just to be in awe that he has chosen me, instead of why he shouldn't.  Blessed is he who takes refuge in Him.  I am going to try my best to rest in that and choose to believe Him and say yes!  I am Radiant.

If you would like to hear this song you can down load it for Free From Mars Hill Church

Missing her

It has been one of those weeks.  The kind of week I wish was over and forgotten, never thought about again.  The one when I think about my mother.  I miss her.

I am not even sure I know what I even miss.  It is not like she was a "normal" mother.  She loved me of course, but her love was much different then the love we all long for and want.  I think I mainly miss the idea of having a mother.

Jesus,  I am so weak right now.  

I have been avoiding this blog.  Too hard to write how I feel because I feel I shouldn't be feeling the way I do.  No joy in these circumstances.   No love.  Just this broken heart that needs to be healed.  

Wordless Wednesday

Be My Valentine

Every year I try to come up with some cheap and crafty way to do Valentines Day. While I don't buy into the whole overpriced dinner it is always fun to make things cute for the kids. Last year I added heart shaped sprinkles to there cheerios. This year I am making Chocolate Dipped Fortune Cookies. Yummy!

Step #1- Get your supplies

Bag of fortune cookies from Cash n Carry ($3.64)

Bag of Chocolate Chips $1.64 at Walgreens (no longer there)

1-2 Tablespoons of Shortening (do not use butter)

Sprinkles $4/5 at Albertsons (current)

Wax paper (already had)

Step #2- Melt Chocolate, Dip & Sprinkle

(watch out for Mr. Grabby hands)

Step #3- Look at your pretty Valentines! You will certainly impress your little ones :)

And if you want extra credit you can remove the fortune and replace it with a cute little note. I am going to write Happy Valentines Day from Reese in Red

Now to some this may be expensive thing to do, but I am catering the food for our Mystery Shopper tour coming this week so I will get full use of these puppies! We have a few spots left so if you want to come let me know. Saturday February 13th from 8:30am-5pm. I have no idea where we are going all I know that it is fun and covers all areas of shopping!!

Under Construction

Last Thanksgiving I found these bar stools at the Goodwill. They are not my favorite, but with the constant flow of entertainment that goes on at the Bustanoby house I needed some extra seats for our bar area. So for $3.50 I think I did pretty good. I also thought it would be nice to transform these puppies into something cute. While I will probably not get this this for awhile I thought I would let you know what was going on in my head. Do you see the potential? I know by the picture they don't look half bad, but they are starting to come apart on the wicker. So this will need to be done. I asked my husband this morning if he would be able to help me and he said "I like them the way they are" code for you have way to many other things going on to be doing this right now! I don't think he knew what he was getting into when he married me. But he loves me and he said he would help. Love that guy! So one day you will get a peak at this treasures of mine. The choosing of the fabric is going to be the hardest part. There are way to many choices out there. And the more I write this post the more I realize that the name of my blog fits me perfectly. I am constantly "Under Construction" I don't think it would be me if I wasn't. I love changing things, making things, and doing things. I am trying to learn how to sit still and be quite, but I think that is going to be a life long journey.

Free Spirit

That is my Ava. She is infectious and makes you want to have fun. And do you see something different about Reese? Yep, no more front teeth! My girls they are great.

Hair Clips & Nursing Covers

Here are a few little projects I have done lately. Thanks to my cute little girl she modeled my hair clip. She is my biggest fan I think. Hopefully you like them too :) Like anything else I make they are for sale. My nursing covers are $20.00 and my hair clips are $4.00. I can make those in pretty much any color you would like. And I think they look great with any outfit. And yes I wear them too! So place your orders ;) I think they would be great for Bride Maids and Flower girls!