Sick Computer!

I am having to send my computer in :( So I won't be around for a few weeks.

accountability.....

I have been thinking a lot lately how I depend on coffee. I look forward to sleeping sometimes because I know that it will only be 8 hours until I get to enjoy that sip again. It is like my cigarette. I am drawn to having conversation with my husband which then makes me feel like I can conquer the world. I am able to get a million things done afterwards because of the energy it gives me. And I think it also causes me to sit and just be me. In other words coffee has become my god. I feel as though I can't live with out it. I look to it for confidence, strength and energy. It is the first thing I go to when I wake up and probably the last thing I think about. So after talking about this with a friend of mine today I have decided to do something about it. I am going to seek first His kingdom. I am not going to have a cup of coffee until I have have met with my one true God. I want to desire Him before anything else. I want to have Him know the real me. I want to depend completely on Him and nothing else! So sistas please help keep me accountable in this.

Yep....Collin and I decided to throw in the towel on having kids. And honestly I feel great about the decision. I don't just want to be a mom, I want to be a really good mom. Throw another kid in the loop and it would make it a lot tougher. So I am soaking in the cooing and baby giggles. Thankfully people at our church keep making babies so I know it won't be the last I hear of it. Also Reese told me she is going to have 10 kids! So I will be one busy Grandmother one day.

Thursday it is.....

My random thoughts.....

I was traveling the blog world and came accross one talking about her hairstylist. I have often wondered what it would be like to have such treatment. How beautiful could I actually be? I think it would be so exciting to have my hair and make-up done and someone hand picking an outfit that fits my bod to the T.
My next thought:
Heaven is supposed to be better than this. Do you get your hairstyled there?
Back to folding some clothes......

Lately my mornings have not been starting out so joyful. About 7:49 EVERYDAY we get a call. It goes a little like this......Is Collin there? Who is this? They say *&^&($^$%&. Sorry. We don't have the money today. Dial tone.
I never thought we would be where we are right now, but who does. Frankly I am just flat out embarrassed of how things are.
Well Lord today I am going to try and choose Joy. I pray for Collin to do the same. We are both so weak right now and it is only You that can help us. Help me to bless my husband & children with my words. The weight of the world is to much for me to handle. I am feeling crushed and defeated. Help me to trust in You and not lean on my own understanding.

She is 4 months!

Photos by Dallas

Norah is one sweet little gal! Dallas everyday says how cute she is and tells people that we are going to keep her :) She seems to be a little camera shy because every time I try to get her cooing on tape she stops! We have yet to master the sleep thing. I used to be so good at letting them cry it out but for whatever reason I am weak when it comes to this cute little face. Needless to say by this face I think that we will wait awhile on the rice cereal.

Pin-curls

Getting my hair done in pin-curls is something that Audrey used to do to my hair when I was little. I loved the attention and time it took so I thought I would do the same with Reese. As you can see I think she does too. She told me when it was all done "Mom, I look like Cinderella" Yep, you sure are a princess!!

Hey Dad, this truck looks like yours...

 

Not sure if you all remember, but Collin was in a car accident. What a funny little guy!

Ava

she is one heck of a handful, but i certainly do love her. here are a few fun pictures of this fun little girl. i don't think i need to say much more because you can get what i am talking about by the look on her face(s).

Wordless Wednesday

The Dare Devils!!

Ever since Reese started riding a 2 wheeler all she wants to do is go down the hill. Today she decided to take the scooter for a spin. Let me tell you as a mom this is one of the scariest things for me to watch her do! She wobbles and I think that she is going to fall every time. Ava is also wanting to get into the excitement with her tricycle. She has already flipped over once, but insists on doing it again! Yes she is strong-willed child #2.

First Day of School

Reese had her first day of school yesterday. Talk about overwhelming emotions. She has been in preschool for two years, so leaving her was not my problem. It was the fact that she is just growing up to fast for my liking. The second picture of her was the one that really got me. She looks so innocent and pure with her cute little dress and princess backpack. I started getting teary eyed because I know that we are walking towards that battle of wanting to do right but being pulled to do wrong. I didn't not have the greatest experiences in school so I am sure that that has a lot to do with it. I was the girl that got teased and hurt. I hope that Reese will be loved and excepted and love and except others.